Being myself

I always wanted to live like i am a wanderer. Backpacking, freedom, uncertainty, thrill and travelling have always excited me from the core. I wish i could spend all night by the beach without informing anyone that i am not coming back home. I wish I could live alone. All by myself, where i don't have to answer anyone. I don't have to give any explanations.I can come home rest assured that my stuff is exactly at the same place where i left it.I can skip my meals, i can over eat, i can backpack and leave home and come after 40 days and no one should give a damn.I just wanna run away. It's not that I hate myself and my life or anyone around me.It's not like I need a vacation or something. But this ease and convenience around me is so dull and not so full of life. Its amazing how one becomes immune to this dullness after a certain period of time. When things dont change for a long time around you, you become monotonous. I am happy, life is okay and things are in good shape. But who wants this social security and convenience around? I am not a loner, but i'd like to live by the sea and travel the world. Live more simply. And the rest is summed up by a song from DIDO which goes like this :

" I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought.
Only a thought.
And if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy."